NECESSARY TO READ:First I wish tell I came here because I'm in a really bad mood and so I started here. I'm sorry. I never felt so bad and I went trought verry verry dark times and whiles both physical and psychical. Nothing almost forced me to end my life like this feeling of being tottally wrong being not deserving to even live…
NECESSARY TO READ: 2ND:I'M attracted to intersex people, crossdressers, females, MTF, I honestly never had anything intimate with male or FTM, but I have also honestly no reason to avoid such relationship and I'm really curious what a male/FTM can do in bed. The health is the only thing I wish to protect on both sides, Hippocrates himself would judge me…
3RD - THE MOST NECESSARY: Please, I'm feeling really down and I can't figure any solution in my life now really for anything, I don!t know what to do....I feel like shortcircuited….Any kind of help from you, really any kind, will be paid back manytimes, except maybe if someone would be so nice and bought me something, then I would paid the prize+tips, I'm personally not much rich. (NO, I really do not have such illusions someone would be so generous,, but once a friend bought me something because she knows I've social phobia and it is really hard to buy something to look like nice girl and not homeless junkie..but my mum took parcel from the post office and opened it,....so the explaining was a verry hard thing, ) Please, teach me.. Give me knowledge. Share your wisdom with me. Please! I'm begging you.
MY SAD HORRIBLE UGLY STORY
I suffer with some type of sexual dysforia. Many people including professionals unofficially said me so. I feel like a belong to oppossite sex since early childhood, but I'm trying to supress such thoughts and feelings since I'm over16/17yrs some age, when first big hormonal changes occured. In a culture of my country and my family, it was impossible then and it is impossible now to even try to live like opposite sex. I don't know why, but I have always tend to group with girls in pre-elementary school teachings and like when we were signing, I did what other girls did and now I wrote what other girls did without thinkinking. I feel like a broken being now ten yrs later. Maybe I did a mistake I didn't escape from home when I was 18 and didn't become porn actress to pay my bill or whore far abroad? When I have sex, I have something like feel of wrongdoing, I would rather want to be like a girl with my girl...but I often dream about penetration like she does, is it so wrong?