I suffer with some type of sexual dysforia. Many people including professionals unofficially said me so. I feel like a belong to oppossite sex since early childhood, but I'm trying to supress such thoughts and feelings since I'm over16/17yrs some age, when first big hormonal changes occured. In a culture of my country and my family, it was impossible then and it is impossible now to even try to live like opposite sex. I don't know why, but I have always tend to group with girls in pre-elementary school teachings and like when we were signing, I did what other girls did and now I wrote what other girls did without thinkinking. I feel like a broken being now ten yrs later. Maybe I did a mistake I didn't escape from home when I was 18 and didn't become porn actress to pay my bill or whore far abroad? When I have sex, I have something like feel of wrongdoing, I would rather want to be like a girl with my girl...but I often dream about penetration like she does, is it so wrong?